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What’s Meant To Be

Thought I was a weak one
Every thought I have I speak
I don’t understand the connection
I write to God as confession
I see the girl in the mirror now
Got lost in the crowd somehow
I’m not one of those other chicks
I think we’re broken & can’t be fixed
Gotta let go & make some room
Gotta get right
A new start is coming soon
I trapped myself in my own mind
Too dang busy loving to find the time
Time to see to wake up just listen
Wasn’t healthy in that mental condition
Can’t settle ‘cause those replacements are looking
Don’t get mad when one says that he took me
I bear my soul right here & I don’t care
Tried to hide me away I ain’t been nowhere
Holding out for what I deserve
I know my value trust me I’m worth it
Live on rock me as best I can
I’m not that girl
Can survive with no man
But I keep writing because it is good for me
Healing my heart. Becoming whole for what’s meant to be

They Ain’t My Dudes

The time is now
For me to stand
And choose who I will give my hand
Its time for happy
The lames keep tryna be my man

I’m chasing happy
Changing all the ways I’m living
You’re a leech
Living off the Love I’m giving

If you had a chance
And really weren’t feeling me
You missed you’re chance
My heart will have a victory

I need a man
Who wants nothing but to make me smile
Stick by my side
Maybe even have a child

The past is gone
My mind refuses those dark places
Tried to erase me
I can’t even remember faces

Listening for God
To tell me which one to choose
See I’m a Queen
Love me or hate me
Respect me cause I’m still your muse

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In the classroom of the future, the classroom will learn, teachers will learn and yes, students will learn. School lunches may or may not be more nutritious. See your life in 5 years…

redbull:

Red Bull #GivesYouWings

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Red Bull #GivesYouWings

oscarprgirl:

Oscar de la Renta for the Outnet.

Lady

oscarprgirl:

Oscar de la Renta for the Outnet.

Lady

oscarprgirl:

I won’t let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It’s the one good thing that I’ve got
I won’t let you down
So please don’t give me up
Because I would really, really love to stick around

Heaven knows I was just a young boy
Didn’t know what I wanted to be
I…

I just watched this video again. Legends.

Just a little reminder. I Love this

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Laying calmly, this polar bear from Animal World collection has no fear of the cold with its fur of sparkling diamonds. Now at Harrods London.

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Laying calmly, this polar bear from Animal World collection has no fear of the cold with its fur of sparkling diamonds. Now at Harrods London.

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Admire our Animal World collection at Harrods London in our magical pop-up Boutique until February 2014. 

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Admire our Animal World collection at Harrods London in our magical pop-up Boutique until February 2014. 

The Monster From Back Then

I fell in Love with this monster
He was messing with my head
I fell in Love with that monster
He squirmed into my bed
I thought I Loved those monsters
Their Love was never true
I’m fighting a bunch of monsters
Is the last monster you?
I wasn’t awake yet
I couldn’t even see
I wasn’t awake yet
They said the monster was me
These two lips were made for kissing
Is it you I was looking for?
That man’s soul is missing
I’m not opening hell’s door
The choices are obvious
It’s gotta be you….
Or you
Just keep THEM away from me

Last Time

Last time was the last time
Drama was my past time
Disrespected me missed out on a good wife
Too much ego
You just ain’t go’n get right
I ain’t the one to break down & lose it all
Stop offering me water
I saw you fall
Treat me right & I’ll have mercy
Dang skippy I’m thirsty
Just not from your nightstand
Keep messing around with my heart
I’m gone find me a white man
Yeah the Queen is sleepy
Stay confidently humble
Everybody needs me
Ran from your commitment like Flojo
Intuition is something else
You was messing with my mojo
To you my womb is like a shackle
I own the keys. I own the throne
Ain’t no king in this castle
Yet
Wandering soul on a journey
I ain’t got no home
I’m a free woman
But when he comes ooh wee
Ain’t nothing we can’t do
I want to witness the transfiguration
See the world from a better view
That’s why the guardians keep me away from you
I don’t play second
I don’t plan to hide
I will see my king
I will be his bride
This star is everlasting
That’s why I keep on shining
I survived to tell the story
Saved to tell world
About my Savior & His glory
Its really not about me
Alter ego on a page
The players keep on changing
This is the last phase
Look deeper than the surface
I was designed to rule the world
Continuing God’s story is my purpose

Queendom

Ooooohhh I Know I Started Something

Y’all I’m just gonna say this & be real. I’m a Black girl. Have been since the day I was born. But that’s not how I identify myself first? I know what your thinking. Uh oh this girl has self-hate issues. No. Let me explain. First I identify as a child of God. Then I identify as human. Next I identify as a girl. Sorry woman I’m grown though people try to act like I’m not. Then I identify as black.

The world looks at me & sees Black. They should because I am. I grew up in a place where I personally had very few issues regarding race. Every once in a while racism would show up, but I got the usual oh that’s JaNelle she’s cool. And it was usually squashed. It took me 35 years to find out …. Um yeah on with what I was saying.

So I have always been proud of being Black. But as I got older I started to ask questions & found out like millions of other Black people we had Native American relatives. Light bulbs started going off & I realized I had a few more “things in me” than Native American. A lot more. So do a lot of us. But that’s not what this is about. This all started because I was blessed to have at least 100 years of ancestors in my life. I was simply proud to know ‘em.

I didn’t know what I was about to start. I simply wanted to know how far back I could go. So I wasn’t looking for how Black I wasn’t. I was looking for people. History. Maybe I could see myself in a face I would never meet from generations ago. Long lost cousins, aunts, and uncles.

There is no reason for me to deny who I am. There are people who never met me who welcome me with open arms. Its almost like they were waiting for me to find them. So y’all can talk about this, that, & the other, I’m talking about family. I don’t care what race they are. If they Love me & accept me the Love is returned. In a world that’s so he’ll bent on holding me back I hold on to good people & hold on tight. We can worry about race later. Like every 10 years when we fill out the census. That’s how I found many of the names I’ll never be able to put a face to. There is still comfort in knowing they existed & that is who I came from.

I have no interest in being political correct. I want to be real. REAL. With all my flubs, flaws, & gaffes. I learn as I go. I grow. Finding my ancestors has helped me plan my future. Love y’all! Jay
Free Will

God gave us free will for a reason. Every person has the right to choose to do right or wrong. Go left or right. To grow or remain stagnant. To run or stand firm. So this law that goes into effect here in Texas really concerns me.

As a victim of rape & abuse I’m appalled at the message lawmakers & government officials are sending young girls. If a woman is raped she first she has to fight off the social stigma if she can get over being traumatized. Me I was lucky. I didn’t know I was being raped. I was given what they call a Molly. I didn’t find out until years later when apparently a tape of my assault was released. So in a way I’m grateful to my attackers for that. Next step.

Now this woman has to stand up to her attackers. There isn’t only a social stigma of rape. There is also a very real threat you face from your attacker. They obviously have to respect for you (that’s probably women in general but hey you can’t read everybody’s mind right?). A person who will rape you has no problem harming you physically. They only want to keep you quiet. Speak up & your life could be in danger. It takes a brave soul to be able to look past that kind of danger.

After the authorities decide if charges should be pressed the fight begins. Now you have to keep in mind that if no charges are pressed it doesn’t mean that it’s not true. It just means there is another victim in the attacker’s future. Next time he’ll be smarter because he knows what the police are looking for. He knows how to cover it up.

Ok. She can take the pressure. Now she has to endure a trial & manage to keep her composure while looking at her attacker every day. Having strangers blame her for a man or group of men not being able to control themselves. No wait. They’re blaming her for their lack of respect for human life.

During this trial the woman finds out she is pregnant. More stress. REAL STRESS. Nice story isn’t it?

What’s my point? My point is that as it stands right now this could happen in Texas. No doubt it is thousands of times every day. At the end of the day the woman would have a difficult time finding a doctor to give her an abortion. I Love Texas, but this law is backwards & wrong. People are so worried about the respect for life that they forget to respect this woman who is forced to give life. Welfare & food stamps are being cut. How does this woman support a child on her own? An unwanted child whose precious mind & body are being created on a physical, emotional, & spiritual wreck. People complain about the poor being able to having babies without being able to afford them, but that’s exactly what you created. Its vicious circle almost impossible to get out of.

Maybe that’s the idea. Keep them poor so they can’t have children. Or keep them poor so they will continue to have poor children who will be forced to work for little to nothing. Keep them sick to control the population. If they die oh well they should’ve worked harder to afford insurance. (Hello Obamacare - socialism or human decency?) Think about what you’re doing. Think about what I said. The abortion right is not just about the fetus. There is a MUCH bigger picture.

No God doesn’t make mistakes, but he did destroy what he created because he didn’t like that it turned out evil. Remember Noah & the Arc? Don’t believe me its in the Bible. Genesis 6:5-6;7 Case closed. No I’m not an abortion right activist or a right to lifer. I’m all about living in the full promise & purpose of God. Be blessed today world.

Love Jay

oscarprgirl:

devastated.

She should let God take up her slack & move on with her life. Take time to feel though. Trust me. Its so much better.

oscarprgirl:

devastated.

She should let God take up her slack & move on with her life. Take time to feel though. Trust me. Its so much better.

Bitter Doesn’t Wear Pink (even though I’m wearing silver & gold)

Ok ladies I have a serious topic to discuss with you. Jealousy, cattiness, & just downright foolish behavior. Why?! As an grown woman, or man, you should have NO time to fool with a fool. Let me repeat. You should have no time to fool with a fool. Uh oh. My Mawmaw would have a serious problem with me saying that word! Anyway, I have a serious problem with people who want to fight with you because they are a) bored b) the spawn of satan c) have the I.Q. & mental attitude of a 12 year old d) all of the above. Find something constructive to do.

What does that mean? People who are on their way down, spiritually or otherwise, have a way of latching onto those who are going in the opposite direction. See the signs & let it be. NEVER give people the satisfaction of stealing your joy. I’ve said it before: they can steal your money, they can steal your car, they can steal your possessions, they can try to steal your right to say no. They can’t steal YOU. That’s the only thing God gave you no one can ever take from you. They can try, but trust they won’t be able to accomplish it. So don’t be anything but you. Ok?!

If you change over time, that’s called evolution. You should live your life in a constant state of change. Stop changing, or as I like to call it ” GROWING”, & find yourself in a box 6 feet under. Understood? Good.

What am I getting at? I have been done wrong by just about every person you can think of. Am I going to stop living? No. Though just about every trick know the book has been used to change the status of my vitals. Why?! Because I have a great life. Other people want it. I’m just that blessed…….. And I know it. So what do I do when haters come along? Consider the source. Process. Use better judgement. Keep it moving.

It is what it is. Now I started this for the ladies. Stop fighting over a man. It’s stupid. Yeah, I called you stupid. You know why?! He’s the problem. If you’re involved & you find out he’s cheating on you leave it be. He has no respect for you or women as a whole. Let it go. Find a man who knows your worth. If he realizes it too late, be the woman Elijah Blake sings about. That’s such a better feeling. There is no competition. If you got the man, be with the man & be happy. If your worried about the “competition” you already know you lost. Why? You know where his heart is. Like I said be the woman Elijah Blake sings about.

I happen to think that your self worth is far more valuable than clinging to a relationship only one of you is in. If every man you EVER dated cheated on you don’t feed into the angry Black woman stereotype. Whoa. Back it up. Don’t feed into the angry woman stereotype. His loss. Men are greedy. He says you’re a nag. Good. You have standards. He says you’re cold. Good. That’s his wye to ask you why you don’t respond anymore. He says you don’t appreciate him. Be smart. A good man that Loves his woman should NEVER have a complaint……if she’s a good woman. (That doesn’t mean she’s a doormat. That means they take care of each other.) Maybe he’s not treating you right. What am I saying? Leave the zeroes. Find a hero. Be happy. Oh yeah…. Find the shade of pink that works for you!