It may be that we had a pseudo wake up call a few hours ago, but its 5 am I’m awake & I feel like writing. I do have to caution this post will offend many. I can’t be in any more danger or be disrespected than I’ve already been so here is my honest opinion.
The situation in Ferguson, Missouri is sad. If the surveillance footage was of Michael Brown these people are protesting to protect a thief’s right to steal. The kid was behaving like a thug. Last night you saw other kids behaving like thugs escalating an already intense situation. I don’t understand why the protesting couldn’t have waited until AFTER the curfew. Maybe that’s my problem. I see the bigger problem. We are raising a generation of kids who have absolutely no respect for authority, themselves, or other people.
There is no doubt that a young boy lost his life & another young man may have the same fate. Damage has been done to the community & for what? I’m not a begging woman. If I were today would be when I start. I would beg for community, county, state, & federal leaders to speak to their followers & show them there is another way to deal with displeasure with the state of your community. I’d ask them to ask their followers how many of them would stay out all night to vote. You want to wield your power hit the powers that be where it hurts. Use your power to remove them from office & do a better job. (Please don’t vote another corrupt or power hungry official with a personal agenda into office.) Explain to me what killing your own people & burning your own community is going to do to further your cause. It will only demonize YOU & feed into the negative stereotypes you’re claiming just aren’t true.
I’m definitely not a girl who is going to tow the line for people who abuse positions of power. Trust me. I’ve been the target of dirty cops, criminals, you name it I’ve made them angry. I can honestly say I’m equal opportunity. I also know I can be protected by policemen & women who respect the badge they wear. That is the issue. Pick your battles & fight them the right way. Listen to your leaders. Listen to your elders. Learn to respect yourself & your community. I could go on, but I’m just too fed up/concerned to voice all of my issues with this Ferguson in writing. There is a much bigger monster that needs to be addressed. The extra violence is a distraction.
Be blessed world I’m going back to bed.
I Don’t Know Why
In your quest for money & fame
From all your attempts to make me lame
In all your attempts to make me cry
A little voice whispers don’t live that lie
& I don’t know why
But I can’t give you the forgiveness you seek
Read Matthew Chapter 5
Blessed are the meek
That doesn’t mean I don’t like nice things
It means I don’t find my value in cars & rings
I value unconditional Love
& I don’t know why
You can’t tear down what God has beautifully made
Keep up all the hatred
I welcome your shade
In the midst of all that
It doesn’t matter how
It doesn’t matter when
The light was reintroduced into my life
Someday that man will ask me to be his wife
Its God made
As mysterious as the 7th wonder
Read your spiritual book
Let no man put asunder
I hope we get away from all the trouble you like
So we can live our life (singular) happy
Its gonna work
It already is
I’m sorry about your plan
But something happened
& I don’t know why
the woman who does not require validation from anyone is the most feared individual on the planet. -mohadesa najumi
The Spirit On The Water
You carried me when I didn’t know I was in need
You protected me from shameless greed
As I look back to see where I’ve been
I know I can’t hide from men & their sins
God created us
In the name of We
Made in his spirit
From his breath,
Moving over the sea.
Forever, wherever, however,
Refusing to give it up
You, Me, We
I’ve been watching most interesting lightning storm for about 20 mins. No rain. No thunder. Just lots of lightning. This is actually after it calmed down some. Beautiful.
Abuse Is Never Ok
A woman who has grown up in an abusive environment does not knowingly get into or stay in an abusive relationship. A man who grows up in an abusive environment is more likely to become an abuser. Abusers think its ok to treat you badly, but if you ever find the strength to stand up to them they apologize & promise never to do it again. That is until the next time it happens. If you ever go public, like to the police, or leave depending on how connected he is he will use all of his power to demonize you & portray himself as the victim. His family sees nothing wrong with the way he treats you because they created him. Your family Loves you , but won’t help because they are either suffering themselves or its “not their business.” Speak the truth. Don’t let a monster take over any more of your life than they already have. Speak up, speak out, & reveal the monster trying to destroy you because you unveiled who he truly is. Your babies are watching. If he doesn’t beat them too, y ‘all are teaching them this behavior is ok. Any man who wants to destroy you because he can’t have you isn’t a man. He’s a monster.
This Valentine’s Day, fight for love. ENDLESS LOVE starring Alex Pettyfer and Gabriella Wilde.
Looks dreamy. Yep. Still will burn it All the way down! Wanna be your girl. So single.
So here I am with a decision to make. I could go to the doctor & have tests run. The last time I did that they couldn’t process it because there wasn’t enough of it. 6 vials and there wasn’t enough. Somebody did something with it . Now let me tell you about my apprehension. The medical community has been experimenting on me foe the past10, actually 20, years without my consent or knowledge. When I was an employed person with medical insurance I had numerous doctors lie to me about medical issues and refused to treat me. I insisted on treatment & got better. I also had people try to mix up medical records to give me illnesses I didn’t have. Some fools even tried to say I had HIV/AIDS because they paid people to inject me with heroin & LSD in an attempt to kill me by overdose. After reading the immortal life of Henrietta Lacks and my own personal experiences would you give up your blood? Oh yeah, they want me to go to the hospital they sent JFK. (Be Baptist or I’ll kill you & make sure you don’t have kids if you do live.) Its hard for me to trust doctors. They can switch blood tests & make up anything they want. This is the real reason no one will hire me. They don’t want me to have medical insurance. They want me to die here. My family was ok with all of this. I refuse to die. God obviously has other plans. And I refuse to let them give me someone else’s medical problems. The medical comminity has made enough money off me. ****** Oh yeah. He said he was going to a job interview at Johns Hopkins. Has new meaning now. Lots of people disappearing. Read the book****** It literally is dangerous to be me. If my family, those who want to be me, the government, abusive men looking to control me, or those who hate me, don’t kill me first, maybe the doctors will. I have to meditate on that one. Pray for me y’all. They’ve been planning this for a while. I am not your medical experiment. I am a human being with rights & feelings. This is a big exercise on trust.